I feel like a hypocrite. I am starting down this road to improve my life, and live a healthier and happier lifestyle, but at the same time, the things I need to work on, the issues I need to confront, are the things I’m choosing to ignore. I feel like I can fix everything else in my life and that will be good enough. I can’t trust people anymore. I have low expectations when it comes to people going through with things. I expect the absolute least from people, so when the times come when they disappoint me, hurt me, or just leave, I won’t be too scarred by the fact.

That all sounds so melodramatic, I know. And instead of going in to a huge rant about why I feel that way, I’ll give it you short and sweet. Everyone in my life, friends and family, have NEVER given me any reason to think otherwise. I’ve been called a failure, fat, a disappointment, a child incapable of making my own decisions, lazy, a pig; and most of those have come from my own family members! How can a person learn to be happy, when the biggest obstacle causing them to be unhappy is their own flesh and blood?

It seems so easy you know? They’re you’re family, forgive and forget! But it’s really not as simple as 1-2-3. My family is nothing but negative, mean, and spiteful people. They are constantly starting drama, and talking about anyone and everyone. They judge and they bully, and it’s honestly a little sick knowing that I’m related to people like that. I haven’t heard the words, “I love you” from a family member (besides my siblings) in years. I haven’t heard praise from my family since I was a little girl. I don’t get support from anyone, and my dreams and passions are always being shot down.

I’m not going to give up on my happiness journey because I have a selfish family, I refuse to let them ruin this for me. But it’s hard getting through such a huge step in my life with the weight of their hatred and judgement on my shoulders. This journey is going to be long and hard, but I know I will make it to the end, with or without my families support.

Question of the day: For anyone who has family issues, or friend issues, how do you deal with that? Have you forgiven and moved on, or are you still battling with them? What advice would you give someone  in the same situation?